Everyone wants to grow up, but I don’t.

Why can’t I just roll in the grass as we did what feels like a million years ago?

Didn’t get it then, don’t get it now.

Too much pressure weighing me down.

I have too many regrets, I have said too many sorries 

Hid myself for fear of being hurt.

Tried to hide the darkness inside, tried to be nice.

Why did we all turn so mean?

Why can’t we just sit and laugh, everything feels so stiff.

Everyone’s afraid.

Everyone’s afraid of being hurt.

So they pretend they are “Grown Up” 

They pretend they know everything.

They shut their best friends out.

They hurt everyone with their words.

I admit I’m scared too, but that doesn’t justify what I said to you.

I shouldn’t have told you to grow up.

I know now more than I did then.

I know.

I wanted to grow up.

Told you to do the same.

Pretended I knew everything.

Pretended to be “Grown Up”

I turned to mean but I didn’t mean to.

I’m sorry for not saying, “I’m Sorry”.

I’m sorry that I didn’t stay by your side.

Like best friends are supposed to.

I’m sorry that I left you alone, broke the only thing you’d ever known.

I’m sorry, I am.

So many feelings we can’t take control of.

So many memories you and I had.

You could make me smile. 

Now I feel like I don’t belong.

Somethings missing.

Tried to fix the broken heart.

That sits like a rock in my chest.

Weighing me down even more.

Tried to replace you.

But nobody laughs like you do.

Nobody knows me like you do.

Everyone wants to grow up.